LAST POEM !

I want to cry so much as I can 

I have burried the pain 

Still deep down in my heart 

I know I deserve Pain 

I hate to loose my friends

I know people just misunderstands me

Aaj phr rore meh 

Kyun Key yeh meri kismat hai 

Har bar rona rona 

Kyun ?

Allah?

Meh har bar kyun rore kis ke leye?

Kyun?

Do I deserve Tears?

Do I deserve Pain?

Do I deserve Death? 

I think I should rather drown myself

Just now in the heavy rain 

I should drown myself in the sea

Just there right now

I should cuz that is what people want me to get rid of their life

Don't they 

I think I will have to do something 

I need to kill myself today 

I think this will be the last poem 

or maybe second last 

I am tired of giving people a hand 

Seriously it really hurts when people misunderstands me hell alot in these days

I just hate myself now 

When I look my tears 

I am thinking I deserve it 

&

I am bloody worth it

There is no one can feel me the way I do for others

I came here to express my feelings not make a war 

I am here to help people not to misunderstand them 

Why can't people understand me

Or is it me who doesn't deserve you guys

I guess so

I think I have given enough chances to people 

Now I should quit 

I am quitting my life too 

People says everything will be alright 

I say nothing can be right

Nothing is unwell

My life is like hell

My future is destroyed 

I can't think and write 

My mind is frozen like an ice is

My heart is stoned like a statue is

My soul has been incredible struggling for love 

Now this is it 

I am out of my life 

I am going to delete myself in my Life

I think for some people will be damn sure happy 

I know 

Cuz I can read other peoples' mind

I know you hate me 

But I love you 

I can't do anything 

But kill myself to death 

I deserve it 

& 

I know it 

I want more pain 

I wish to stay in hell too 

Writing this maybe last time poem 

Lets see if this time I am saved or not 

Or else If I don't post anything 

Just think 

PARI IS DEAD 

OK ..SHE IS DEAD REALLY DEAD !!

BYE TC GUYS 

ALLAHAFIZ 

Written today (05.04.11)