Nightmare or Dream?

I don't know what 

Is it a feeling or what 

I dreamt about myself

Something I am going to the wrong path 

I see no path 

Like someone has kidnapped me 

Someone is trying to drown me into emotions

I wanted to go out

I wanted to scream for help

No one came 

But then I saw a white room 

A bathroom 

Saw a pink mobile 

Tried to let it work 

So I could 

The bad guys were near the door 

But I saw a light 

I screamed for help

I remembered Allah 

Allah has given me the path 

The path of the jungle 

The guys told me about 

I am their key

Like I was the one to do the work 

I don't know what it was 

But It was the wrong path they gave me to do

More than A Crime could be

I tried to escape 

I run so much 

But I was tired

My heart was beating

I ran till my life

I could feel the bad guys were in search for me

They looked everywhere

Until it was night 

I could hear animal's voices

I run  I run

Until I saw the way of road 

I tried to call

No one pick the phone

I was lost in dark path 

I didn't know what right path for me

Then suddenly my eyes opened from the dreams

I could feel I was sweating

My heart was beating 

I couldn't think 

I coudn't calm myself

It was 3:30 am 

I could hear suddenly voices of boots running faster

I could hear someone broke down

I could hear the glasses break 

Just like the bomb explodes

I don't know what it was 

I prayed to Allah 

until the voices was down 

Until I could sleep again

The Greatest God is Allah 

No other than that 

If you read quran's word 

You will be safe

A greatest and strongest ever !

I felt myself again 

The real me 

From the wrong path I took 

Was longer in me 

I feel I am the girl

Who can choose the right path again 

I was lead to bad path 

by evil peoples

wanted me to crime

But no longer than Saying Allah by my heart and soul

I felt myself that I could change the reality

The inner evil darkness me 

That I could live longer

Forget about death 

Forget about tears

For those who have hurted me 

I could be me again 

The same old Pari 

Who used laugh 

Who used to dance 

Who used to sing 

Who used to have fun 

with her family and friends

Who used to some creative things

Who used be the same old crazy Pari 

This dream has taught me the way I have choosen the path 

I could feel the scream in me 

I could feel the darkness that were lying b/w me 

But not anymore

I only can erase that 

The darkness 

The evilness 

Side of me 

I could be the true and kind Pari again =)

Just with the smile and laugh =)

As my friends says =)

Always laugh and keep smiling =)

Written today (19.04.11)