NO MORE...

For friends I can do anything 

I can give them the care they want 

The need the choice of their gifts

I have given them everything 

But it is just most of them has break my heart

I felt like to explode

Like to kill myself...

It is just some misunderstandings I loose them 

Even today I don't get why what they have problem 

Why is it my laff ? 

Is it my talk ? 

I mean If I talk too much ? 

If I laugh all time 

That is my nature

Bubbly that is me 

But sometimes I feel so alone 

That people start to break me down 

Just feel that It is my heart has stoned itself...

It feels so down so much people have hurted me alot 

They spread rumours about me 

They are jealous

I don't get why people react like this 

Can't there be found any perfect friend for me?

I mean there is so few people that are like can give their life for you

But very many of them can misunderstand you create doubts and make you fall into well

It is just that I am tired of explaining the truth about me 

The truth .....

It is just that some hatred people just have to insult you in front of alls 

It is just that they want to take advantage 

It is just that they can't understand you 

The main fucking reason is to understand someone 

AS LONG YOU WISH TO 

I mean why in earth doesn't people understand 

If they hide or lie..to you 

You can clear yours doubt 

Then ask for the truth 

Some people they leave you for small issues - i call that people as immature and childish...

But some people just don't get it....

Not about me

They don't know me that well 

What I think about

I never forget people who have hurted me

I never forget people who has decieved me

I never forget people who think I am looser

They just don't get it 

I don't have the actually attitude

But yeah I use it towards boys 

Cuz Boys have played so much part of my life

BOys are the main reason I get hurt 

Thanks for those who treated me like a doll

and THANKS FOR THOSE WHO HAS TREATED ME LIKE A DUSTBIN THANK YOU SO MUCH

I HOPE I DON'T SEE YOU GUYS IN MY FUTURE :xxxxx

you already have destroyed me not enuf.

These words must be hard on you 

but mean it.they have lied so much in my ..heart 

dat my heart has frozen ..

and I can't think abt nemore

I am tired of my life....

I just want to be alone ..busy...in my life.

I don't need anyone 

I want people to hate me ...

I want people to leave me 

I can make you leave me ..

EASY FIGHT WITH YOU ..

Only you can understand me

Only you want to understand me...

I tried to be nice ...and I have soft hearted..

Its just dat ....I like 2 spit on you guys 

Cuz you doesn't deserve me 

I know these words ache you alot

But believe me or not 

My fucking heart has so much burden now ..that now it wanna stop

I have also pain...

I am sorry i can't tell you anymore..

I can't take this anymore..

I hate to talk about myself..

I hate to care about me 

I am already destroyed 

My life has been used some random guys ..

And ..My future.is nothing but a pin ...

Nothing ...It is short 

I don't have much time

I have to die .....

Not cuz ov you loosers..

Not cuz ..cuz .I AM SO TIRED OF THIS FUCKING WORLD AND LIFE..WHERE THERE IS SO MANY ..CRUEL PEOPLE....

OH ALLAH MUJHE MOUT DY DOOOOOOOO..............

PLEASE PRAY FOR ME I WILL DIE SOOOOOOOOON 

I DON'T WANT TO DISTURB YOU ANYMORE.....

WRITTEN TODAY LAST MAYBE AGAR ZINDa BACHo ..(28.04.11)