Walking...

Walking without no fear 

No one can hear me 

Walking in slow motion 

Looking everywhere 

The grasses are winding up 

The wind is hissing

The rain is falling down 

I feel no where save 

Just me and the walking 

Walking and thinking about my life 

What I have set myself from darkness 

And how should I recieve myself from darkness to brightness

How should I meet my goal 

What is life

I walk without no fear 

I hear no voices 

Only the natural things like the wind is roaring 

And the nature has been whispering to me

Walking with my umbrella 

See everything unclear and blur 

The rain must be falling hard on my umbrella

I feel no secure around me 

No one there

Just to secure myself 

Just to feel that no one is around me 

I again feel the darkness around my soul 

Tragedy to know that  I am still all alone 

So many friends has left me with a note:

"I am no longer your friend - bye"...

What an idiot to thing say 

Can't they feel how am I 

How I stood for them 

Are they so stone hearted

I left my friends 

Thinking my parents are right again 

No friends can understand your pain

Only you and yourself can 

While others can cheat you 

Betrayed you

You just have to trust yourself 

And keep smiling fake 

As society lives for liars 

I know I was so rich in honesty

But my honesty people has used me 

In sense they think I was such a fool they could fooled me 

Even they think I could die for them 

No friend are likely like this 

I wonder why in earth people say 

There is a friend who can die for you 

Maybe a lover can not a friend can 

I have met so many people in my life 

And it hurts to make them friends 

Cuz one day you get hurt by them 

I was so furious and my speed was up 

My walking has become my life inner me 

It burnt me 

The ignorant people 

Everything 

Even little pieces 

From start as a kid 

I was walking alone

In my adolence I was walking alone 

Never depending on people 

But the day I had known so many people

Going for bad companys 

Made me sick and tired of them 

Have become like them

Peer pressure 

But not touched by smokers or drunkers 

That was I was saved by 

I wish to meet good people in my life

And do good deeds 

I never want to hurt people intentionally 

I thought I could find 

But yet I have found so many greedy people, sick people 

and other kinds of bad people in my life

My soul has been touched more like them 

With bad people and their deeds has effected me 

I was so cold by then, my attitude was outraged 

I was so not me as I was more like depressed 

I went down deep in depression 

Where I have tried so many things to kill my life

To injury myself 

Cuz of a person has made me so sick in that game 

Not only that person but also peoples' thoughts

It was so outrageous 

Mystrified

I didn't know what I was thinking and do ....

I out to be a good girl 

I m going through a good time 

But now it has come across a section 

Where darkness and coldness has fallen in me

I am so severe cold and pain 

I don't know how many painful things to myself 

I was my own enemy 

Walking walking walking 

Till my life will be over 

So much struggling 

So much to do ....

My life has not ended 

But now It begins here with Walking ... 

Written today (24.07.11)